i hate posers. :)
(and that's it.)
Wednesday, April 14, 2010
Tuesday, October 13, 2009
maths is over duuhh-
relieved, concerned, cautious too.
a little here, a little there i guess.
tomorow's english,
practice? sure.
but- awwwh mann. i have sooo gotta buck up on my religous subjects!
i am way, way, way ,waaayy behind; and i've only got a week to catch up.
eeeksh enough?
at least the rest of the subjects (that i despise!) have ended. - finally.
english should be a breeze, but to be on the super safe side;
let's just practice finding facts in passages shall we?
i mean 'i'. -.-'
and since i get to relax just a little after the academic exams,
i can finally catch up on 'how i met your mother'!
my god, that man can tell a story.
the story seems predictable but it just shoots back at my face with unexpectation!
dissappoints me, amuses me, entertains me.
and i loove Barney; LE-GEN-DA-RY!
that phrase gets to me everysingletime!
he's full of himself, but that's what makes him such a good character. ;p
i'm only on season 2, but i can't get enough.
i've got to pause on it for awhile, but sooon;
i'm gonna un-pause! ;p
relieved, concerned, cautious too.
a little here, a little there i guess.
tomorow's english,
practice? sure.
but- awwwh mann. i have sooo gotta buck up on my religous subjects!
i am way, way, way ,waaayy behind; and i've only got a week to catch up.
eeeksh enough?
at least the rest of the subjects (that i despise!) have ended. - finally.
english should be a breeze, but to be on the super safe side;
let's just practice finding facts in passages shall we?
i mean 'i'. -.-'
and since i get to relax just a little after the academic exams,
i can finally catch up on 'how i met your mother'!
my god, that man can tell a story.
the story seems predictable but it just shoots back at my face with unexpectation!
dissappoints me, amuses me, entertains me.
and i loove Barney; LE-GEN-DA-RY!
that phrase gets to me everysingletime!
he's full of himself, but that's what makes him such a good character. ;p
i'm only on season 2, but i can't get enough.
i've got to pause on it for awhile, but sooon;
i'm gonna un-pause! ;p
if you don't really like me,
just spit it out.
i won't be able to handle it, but at least i'll know.
i need to know.
Monday, October 12, 2009
This vacation's useless
These white pills aren't kind
I've given a lot of thought
on this 13 hour drive
I miss the grinded concrete
where we sat past 8 or 9
And slowly finished laughing
In the glow of our headlights.
I've given a lot of thought
to the nights we used to have
The days have come and gone
Our lives went by so fast
I faintly remember breathing
on your bedroom floor
Where I laid and told you,
but you swear you loved me more
Do you care if I
don't know what to say
Will you sleep tonight
or will you think of me
Will I shake this off
pretend its all okay
That there someone out there
who feels just like me
There is
Those notes you wrote me
I've kept them all
I've given a lot of thought
of how to write you back this fall
With every single letter
in every single word
There will be a hidden message
about a boy that loves a girl
Do you care if I
Don't know what to say
Will you sleep tonight
Or will you think of me
Will I shake this off
Pretend its all okay
That there's someone out there
Who feels just like me
There is.
this,icanrelateto.
itsmeaningful,tome.
andiknowhowit feels.
iwonderifthereisanybody.
Sunday, October 11, 2009
i effin' hate maaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaths! -.-'
stupid paper.
there was a reason why it rained,
cause everybody in the epress stream in secondary two was probably crying!
(i'm exaggerating.)
mann, it was such a mistake to concentrate on science!
shit.
what luck do i have,
i studied on science, the science paper was easy.
i browse through maths, and ifeel like killing myself doing the paper.
why? why must this happen?
*shakes head, holding up hands.
must everything be this ridiculous? -.-'
but you know what? i'm gonna forget it, if i fail, i just have to pary that my previous work can back me up.
hopefully-
i've got my mind on another thing;
ever heard of the Mayan theory?
neither did i, but i'm sure everybody know what the hell doomsday is.
21 December 2021, not September. -.-'
believe it? nahh, i don't really care.
but its an interesting subject.
its fun knowing about how 'smart' people predict when the end of the world is.
i wonder what would happen on the day.
heh, i guess its for no one to know and for everybody to find out. ;p
stupid paper.
there was a reason why it rained,
cause everybody in the epress stream in secondary two was probably crying!
(i'm exaggerating.)
mann, it was such a mistake to concentrate on science!
shit.
what luck do i have,
i studied on science, the science paper was easy.
i browse through maths, and ifeel like killing myself doing the paper.
why? why must this happen?
*shakes head, holding up hands.
must everything be this ridiculous? -.-'
but you know what? i'm gonna forget it, if i fail, i just have to pary that my previous work can back me up.
hopefully-
i've got my mind on another thing;
ever heard of the Mayan theory?
neither did i, but i'm sure everybody know what the hell doomsday is.
21 December 2021, not September. -.-'
believe it? nahh, i don't really care.
but its an interesting subject.
its fun knowing about how 'smart' people predict when the end of the world is.
i wonder what would happen on the day.
heh, i guess its for no one to know and for everybody to find out. ;p
Saturday, October 10, 2009
my life does suck, but you know what uplifted me?
a big, gigantic camera!
saw it, loved it.
it was secondhand though, but still takes great pictures with superb quality!
takes in the lighting nicely.
took loads of uneccessary pictures, ;p
really made my day.
and to test the camera to a greater extent, i blew bubbles!
(i'm still at that stage where i like bubbles, cartoons, and other funny stuff.)
well, actually i was washing my hands and for no absolute reason, started to make bubbles.
-.-'
then i tested whether the camera could take in the light of the almost 'transparent' bubble.
nothing like taking good photos with a friggin' great camera that i've always wanted!
just because of this camera, i've decided to get up early in morning just to take pictures. ;p
good ehh? ;pp
shit.
my life sucks.
ever felt so absolutely pathetic in your life that you should just end it right now?
i'm pathetic sure, pitiful even.
even if i die, i don't think anybody would care right?
i'm neither important here nor there.
i don't think i have anything to live for anymore.
yea, i'm depressed sure.
but,
do people care about me?/ or are they just faking it?
i don't know,
i know there's always a reason for something; so is there a reason that i'm here?
i doubt it somehow.
i have friends, sure; but...
do they care about me?/ or am i just laughing along with them for no reason?
i'm not accepted here, i'm not accepted there, so; where the heck am i supposed to be?
but do i really have friends?
are they really what i think they're supposed to be?
i don't know what to think!
i don't want to have anymore bad thoughts about anybody!
but i'm starting to doubt my faith in them,
are they phonies? or am i just imagining it?
i could be overreacting, but i'm not sure.
am i still with them?, or are they already against me?
do they still even care?
or they don't anymore?
or they never did,
let's imagine, i'm deadd-
my parents would be sad, maybe.
people at school wouldn't give a crap about it and go on with their lives.
it'll be like throwing a paper ball into the rubish bin.
there's no worth in it and you could forget about it in a second.
so, i'm just rubbish.
and nobody would even care.
i'm overreacting, i know.
but, i want to know what's going on, i need to know what's going on.
does she care? does she not?
all these questions, all that's in my mind; will be possibly left unanswered.
care if i die?-
sigh~ -.-'
my life sucks.
ever felt so absolutely pathetic in your life that you should just end it right now?
i'm pathetic sure, pitiful even.
even if i die, i don't think anybody would care right?
i'm neither important here nor there.
i don't think i have anything to live for anymore.
yea, i'm depressed sure.
but,
do people care about me?/ or are they just faking it?
i don't know,
i know there's always a reason for something; so is there a reason that i'm here?
i doubt it somehow.
i have friends, sure; but...
do they care about me?/ or am i just laughing along with them for no reason?
i'm not accepted here, i'm not accepted there, so; where the heck am i supposed to be?
but do i really have friends?
are they really what i think they're supposed to be?
i don't know what to think!
i don't want to have anymore bad thoughts about anybody!
but i'm starting to doubt my faith in them,
are they phonies? or am i just imagining it?
i could be overreacting, but i'm not sure.
am i still with them?, or are they already against me?
do they still even care?
or they don't anymore?
or they never did,
let's imagine, i'm deadd-
my parents would be sad, maybe.
people at school wouldn't give a crap about it and go on with their lives.
it'll be like throwing a paper ball into the rubish bin.
there's no worth in it and you could forget about it in a second.
so, i'm just rubbish.
and nobody would even care.
i'm overreacting, i know.
but, i want to know what's going on, i need to know what's going on.
does she care? does she not?
all these questions, all that's in my mind; will be possibly left unanswered.
care if i die?-
sigh~ -.-'
Friday, October 9, 2009
i've got too many thoughts right now,
'promises, they break before they're made'.
'who'd want to be part of the people when there's people like you?'.
'heaven ain't close in a place like this'.
'no one to confide'.
i've heard these things like a billion and one times now.
everytime it comes up, i think of my own patheic life.
people make promises, but they don't really keep it,
it hurts to hear the things that would disappoint you.
they can't keep it, they know they can't but they still want the expression of disappointment on your face.
its called lying actually.
i've been duped too many times in my frggin' life.
its lie after lie, and i'm dumb enough to go along with these deceites.
that's why i can't give my trust anymore. (its also one of the reasons why i rarely go out.)
i can't believe anything that comes out of anybody's mouth anymore,
cause i know its just not true.
who does want to be part of what's now commonly known as society?
you know what i see when i look around?
mannequins, having the same style, same attitude, same personality.
a.k.a; 'posers'.
its just so sad to see the same things everywhere.
is it so bad to be different? is it so wrong?
i guess it is to some people.
i just don't get it, just because i don't have a bag like that, my skirt's not that short, or i'm not so wild, and i'm not into the same kind of music, i can't be part of the same world?
i have to be looked down for having my own rights and rules?
i have to be actually alienated to far away planet?
so be it.
i'd rather be what i am and supposed to be than a bunch of bozo's who look alike. -.-'
heaven't isn't close in a place like this.
in fact, its basically somewhat hell.
its not that i'm not grateful for being here,
but 'here' is really horrible.
i know i have easier than other people, but i'm lower than all of this.
its not like i could take it! jeez.
ohh, and this is actually kind of being in 2e1 and having religous class at the same time.
i can't basically do both at the same time,
i'm weak! -.-'
i need help. ;[
i don't have anyone to confide.
its not like anybody understands, even if i tell them its not like they understand.
if i say it out, i'd be like a whiny baby.
if i say it out, people get hurt.
if i say it out, i'll be the bad guy.
its just not worth it. i just see it better if i don't let it out.
people think its bad to keep things inside, but honestly, it makes this world a better place.
other's, (even my parents) don't really know or understand me.
if i say 'A' other's think about 'B', 'Z' or maybe even 'Q'.
its ridiculous!
but honestly, even i don't really know myself.
i'm different at home, school, and my 'other' school.
there's so many to keep track of that i kind of lost it.
what can i say? - i'm fated to pretend.
yea, i like to criticise; so what's it to you?
'promises, they break before they're made'.
'who'd want to be part of the people when there's people like you?'.
'heaven ain't close in a place like this'.
'no one to confide'.
i've heard these things like a billion and one times now.
everytime it comes up, i think of my own patheic life.
people make promises, but they don't really keep it,
it hurts to hear the things that would disappoint you.
they can't keep it, they know they can't but they still want the expression of disappointment on your face.
its called lying actually.
i've been duped too many times in my frggin' life.
its lie after lie, and i'm dumb enough to go along with these deceites.
that's why i can't give my trust anymore. (its also one of the reasons why i rarely go out.)
i can't believe anything that comes out of anybody's mouth anymore,
cause i know its just not true.
who does want to be part of what's now commonly known as society?
you know what i see when i look around?
mannequins, having the same style, same attitude, same personality.
a.k.a; 'posers'.
its just so sad to see the same things everywhere.
is it so bad to be different? is it so wrong?
i guess it is to some people.
i just don't get it, just because i don't have a bag like that, my skirt's not that short, or i'm not so wild, and i'm not into the same kind of music, i can't be part of the same world?
i have to be looked down for having my own rights and rules?
i have to be actually alienated to far away planet?
so be it.
i'd rather be what i am and supposed to be than a bunch of bozo's who look alike. -.-'
heaven't isn't close in a place like this.
in fact, its basically somewhat hell.
its not that i'm not grateful for being here,
but 'here' is really horrible.
i know i have easier than other people, but i'm lower than all of this.
its not like i could take it! jeez.
ohh, and this is actually kind of being in 2e1 and having religous class at the same time.
i can't basically do both at the same time,
i'm weak! -.-'
i need help. ;[
i don't have anyone to confide.
its not like anybody understands, even if i tell them its not like they understand.
if i say it out, i'd be like a whiny baby.
if i say it out, people get hurt.
if i say it out, i'll be the bad guy.
its just not worth it. i just see it better if i don't let it out.
people think its bad to keep things inside, but honestly, it makes this world a better place.
other's, (even my parents) don't really know or understand me.
if i say 'A' other's think about 'B', 'Z' or maybe even 'Q'.
its ridiculous!
but honestly, even i don't really know myself.
i'm different at home, school, and my 'other' school.
there's so many to keep track of that i kind of lost it.
what can i say? - i'm fated to pretend.
yea, i like to criticise; so what's it to you?
